July 25, 2010

big day.

Today is a big day for us. We have much to celebrate and much to be grateful for....


1. Pin turns 3 months!
 -She is doing great- growing, smiling, cooing and hitting her milestones. She was sick (again) last week and although we saw some seizure activity, it was milder and less frequent. We are very hopeful.

2. It is my birthday (I love birthdays).
 -My birthday gift request: the removal of the bed from our living room.

Since Easter, we have had a queen-size bed in the middle of our living space. It was "temporary" so we never expected it to still be here mid-July. It was necessary while my mom was living with us (7 weeks sleeping on an air mattress is NOT an option) and wonderfully gluttonous (eating & laying down while watching tv) but we have moved on.

3. Pin sat in her bumbo.





July 24, 2010

back home.

Three weeks in North Carolina was wonderful. We come home tan, loved, rested and ready to go back. Here are some of our favorite memories:

-Hanging out with cousins: Maddie and Emme



























- Sleeping on Grammy's bed

























-Playing with Pin's new toy: Pop Pop




















-Eating at Brew Nerds and Kernel Kustard:























-Shopping the J.Crew Warehouse Sale with Aunt Jen:





































-Napping with Uncle DJ






















-Celebrating Emme's 'hawaiian' birthday





















July 4, 2010

thankful.

Pin is still sick..but we think she is on the mend. She continues to sleep, eat and has had many seizures but we have caught glimpses of our lil' girl in her wake time. We have much to be thankful for.

Hope you enjoy this beautiful holiday wherever you are-
S.

July 1, 2010

Please pray

This is Jeremy. No sooner did Steph share about Pinny's lack of seizures in recent weeks did they unfortunately return. Despite my best efforts not to, it seems I have passed a cold on to her; Pinny has been stuffed up and having diarrhea today. When epileptic babies get sick, they are more susceptible to seizures. I think this is because their overall system gets agitated and they may not fully absorb medication.

At any rate, at about 6pm tonight Pinny began to have a cluster of 6 or so seizures in a 45 minute span. They were more minor than the ones we have been accustomed to, but we've been told that more than 3 in 30 minutes can necessitate us rectally administering a powerful drug called Diastat to Pinny. This drug is basically Valium; it can depress a baby's breathing-- as a result, it's recommended we call 9-1-1 if we have to use it. We opted not to do so tonight based on our gut that she is O.K. And since that cluster earlier in the evening, she has calmed down somewhat with maybe 1-2 short seizures per hour.

Please pray for us that Pinny's seizures would quickly subside and that she would quickly get over this cold. Please pray we wouldn't be discouraged by this episode and that we would continue to trust the Lord.

UPDATE (Friday am): Things seem to have stablized somewhat, although Pinny still has a cold. Thankfully she is eating and sleeping well. Please continue to pray this cold will pass quickly, and that we would continue to focus on what is unseen, not what is seen (II Cor. 4 17-18):

For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

no news is great news.

Hello everyone!
You have not heard from us in awhile because we have been busy enjoying our lil' girl. Pinny has been seizure-free for 10 days and counting. We are beyond thrilled and so grateful the cocktail of meds she is taking is actually working. Wow....what a difference in our day to day. We continue to get test results back- all have been negative or normal. Again, what a HUGE praise and we are so thankful.

Pinny is growing (last weigh-in she was 9lbs. 10 oz.) and she smiles, coos, and loves looking at artwork all over the house. She is a blessing and we are truly falling in love with her.

We can't wait to do 'the world tour' and for all our favorite family and friends to meet her.

Xoxo.

June 24, 2010

theme song.

But for you who fear my name,
the Son of righteousness will rise
with healing in His wings.
And you shall go forth again,
skip about like calves
coming from their stalls at last.

You shall be my very own
on the day that I
cause you to be my special home.
I shall spare you as a man,
as compassion on his son
who does the best he can.
Malachi 4:2

June 20, 2010

Back to the basics: Now, faith is...

by Jeremy

Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen. Hebrews 11:1 (ESV)

I've been contemplating this verse in the New Testament a lot over the past several weeks. One of the hardest things about this journey is simply trusting in the Lord for a good outcome. On one hand, we recently were given encouraging news. On the other, we continue to see seizures; in recent days, the number of these seizures has actually increased. Let me just say that watching the latter of these is NOT easy to deal with. But I guess that is the essence of faith- that if the outcome regarding Pinny's seizures were certain, how much faith would all of this require of us? And not just faith in the doctors' judgement. Please pray that our faith in the Great Physician would continue to increase.

June 12, 2010

Good News from Smart People

Just to set the context on what we learned at the Cleveland Clinic (see previous blog entry on the whole experience, which was impressive), epilepsy is a very complex brain disorder in which the seizure itself is usually an outward manifestation of a serious underlying root problem. It’s very important to find the underlying cause of the seizures because in many cases, doctors can customize medication to attack a specific area of the brain that is over-excited. However at the same time, modern medicine unfortunately has much to learn about epilepsy; we have been told the same stat by several different doctors: doctors (even the best) only identify an underlying cause about 50% of the time.

With this backdrop, the top 3 causes of seizures (some of which are not technically “epileptic”) are:

1. Brain injury (think head trauma or a baby’s brain being deprived of oxygen at birth);

2. Genetic/metabolic disorders (a mistake in the DNA that instructs the body to process/create energy incorrectly); and,

3. Illness/substance abuse (high fever, mom’s drug addiction impacting the baby, etc.).

The process by which physicians troubleshoot epilepsy is by putting all three of these things, as well as their associated symptoms on the table, and then start to pull options off the table that do not offer a good match for a variety of reasons.

The first thing Dr. Elaine Wyllie did with us was listen to Steph and I tell our story for about an hour; then she inspected Pinny’s medical records from her previous hospital stays. Immediately, Dr. Wyllie eliminated #1 as an option based on the MRI taken several weeks ago; #3 also does not apply, although I can only empathize that drug temptations likely abound on account of the fact that Steph lives with me…

That leaves the genetic/metabolic category of epilepsy. Now if you remember, we had previously been given a diagnosis of a rare genetic/metabolic disorder (called glycine encephalopathy) that was proven false. However, there are hundreds of identified metabolic disorders; and I am told there are likely thousands that have yet to be discovered.

This is where Dr. Parikh and his team came in. He is a metabolic specialist that often gets called in as a “field expert” to drill down further on this particular angle. They look at blood, spinal fluid, urine tests, the physical appearance of the baby, looking for elevations/deficiencies of certain amino acids, neurotransmitters, and/or other things to find if the body is generating energy incorrectly.

Here is how he set the context for us: Our DNA is like a volume of complex books, consisting of 30,000 chapters and as many as 3 TRILLION letters. If there is a typo of ONE of those letters, it can instruct the body to any number of dysfunctions. Modern medicine over the past decade has made significant progress in comprehending these volumes, but there is still a TON of work to do; even the computing power required to analyze our DNA remains a constraint. This is one key reason why we often only get answers on epilepsy 50% of the time.

In the opinion of Dr. Wyllie, Dr. Parikh, and many other members of the team that we didn’t meet but were consulted, among the things left on the table, the condition that they believe is most likely is what is called Benign Neonatal Convulsions. Two things that do not totally fit with this diagnosis (1) this condition is typically genetically inherited, so there is often a family history that exists, and (2) Lucca's EEG was a little more abnormal than is typically the case with BNCs. However, since we don’t know anything about my dad’s line, since her EEG is still within the bounds of BNC, and since she is largely normal aside from the seizures, they thought this was the best-fitting, most-likely diagnosis at this point.

Now, if your newborn is unfortunately having seizures, without question this is the condition you want her to have. With BNCs, while any seizures are scary, the word benign is instructive. The medical community does not totally understand why, but the seizures naturally subside within 6 months. And while there is a substantially higher probability of the child developing another epileptic disorder later in life (i.e. ~20% chance versus ~2% without), there is no significant difference in the occurrence of developmental problems than versus non-seizing newborns.

To be clear, this is not a definite diagnosis. And when I say “most likely” I do not mean a 50% chance; rather, if there are 10 things left on the table, this one maybe has a 25% probability, and the others maybe have an equal probability divided up among the remaining 75%... what is left on the table that is less likely? A series of rare metabolic disorders that would be progressive in nature. Obviously this would be a lot more concerning than the benign ones, as it would imply Pinny would not progress or worsen from today.

But still, this is HUGE! We had previously been told the benign seizure types were not likely at all. Now we have elite pediatric neurologists not only telling us BNC is possible, but that it is also the most likely diagnosis. Hope is such a delicate thing in a situation like this where you see disturbing seizures almost every day; but this is unquestionably a reason to strengthen our hope for a good outcome.

Where do we go from here?

Well, there are still a cadre of tests still pending. Some of these are general genetic tests that I am told effectively look for “missing paragraphs” in the 4 “chapters” relevant to epilepsy; there are also 4 tests that will be done that look to confirm/deny the existence of specific genetic defects (two of which relate to BNC). Some of these tests go to Europe and can take 8 weeks.

So we pause and hope for the best.

Also, Dr. Wyllie believes a drug called Topomax will be more effective in the types of seizures Pinny is having. It will take a few weeks for this drug to ramp in her system, although we believe we are seeing some positive impact already. We will also add a few specific vitamins where there could be some metabolic deficiency, and maybe down the road start to wean off of phenolbarb.

As I said earlier, thanks so much for your support. How can you pray from here? A few things. Obviously continue to pray that God heals Pinny in a way that is unambiguously the work of His hand. Second, the drugs would stop all seizures; in the “bad” conditions, seizures are often not controllable. Third, that future tests would disconfirm the bad epileptic conditions and confirm her condition is benign. Fourth, please pray for normal development to continue.

Take care, Jeremy

pin & papa.